Welcome To My First Hit

Welcome to Chasing Dopamine—a project that has probably been years in the making. As a teenager, I meticulously documented my daily life through (embarrassingly) detailed journal entries. Each journal was a creative expression of myself, filled with snapshots of my mind—events, hopes, loves, pain, and the countless choices and thought processes that shaped me. But for the past 15 years, my memories have been scattered, incomplete, and largely undocumented. Social media has preserved some of them, but what we share publicly is often a carefully curated version of our reality—vastly different from the raw, unfiltered truth that lives within the pages of a private journal. This blog is my attempt to bridge that gap. To process my recent ADHD diagnosis (in 2023) and connect the dots of my life—to understand how my actions, choices, and experiences have shaped the person I am today. I wish I had started something like this sooner, but when you're deep in the chaos of life, it’s hard to step back and see the bigger picture. I don’t yet know where the official starting point will be, but I do know this: Chasing Dopamine will be an honest reflection of my life through the lens of ADHD—how my relentless pursuit of dopamine-fueled highs has influenced and altered my path. So, if you’re ready, let’s explore this journey of self-reflection and discovery together.

When Love Feels Safe: The First Time My Nervous System Didn’t Panic

I didn’t realize love could make my nervous system feel quiet. Not numb. Not anxious. Not waiting for the catch. Just… calm. This weekend, I learned what it feels like when someone loves you in a way your body isn’t used to—and why even the good can

The Season of Intention

After a few months off this summer—off from teaching, writing, structure, and sometimes even from myself—I’ve returned to something steady. But not by accident. This season is all about being intentional. Not perfect. Not always certain. But grounded in the kind of choices that align with the

The Balance Between Open and Guarded

Before beginning this blog post, I want to acknowledge that I originally wrote it in early May. It's been sitting in drafts for over three months—and in that time, two of the three connections I mention ended abruptly, and I had to navigate the emotional weight of

Chasing Strength: What I found in the Ashes of the Storm

Two years ago, when I faced overwhelming emotional pain, I spiraled in ways that felt impossible to recover from. I chased relief through alcohol, public meltdowns on social media, and desperately sought validation from people who couldn’t hold space for me. But this time was different. Last week, I

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When Love Feels Safe: The First Time My Nervous System Didn’t Panic

The Season of Intention

The Balance Between Open and Guarded

Chasing Strength: What I found in the Ashes of the Storm